hah. how much longer can i hold it in? it's closing in now, so quickly. im escaping, but it's trapping me in so tightly. arghh. today's really bad. chem started of with me not understanding what he was saying and my chem file splitting, causing all my notes to fall out. then math. i cant believe math assignment slipped off my mind, i forgot to do it, how great. yay. but luckily mrs ang didnt want it today. (: hehe. okay then came recess, whee. bought myself new chem file. okay then came philo! haha, both blocks cheered me up alot! lol. then chi. ): got SA back, and i almost failed. haiz. then lunch! but ms siow took it away for physics. so lunch was gone. arghh and right after lunch was eng expo test! and lunch was robbed away! tsk. lol. then eng. got brain block. ahh. think i wrote out of point. lol. and then RS! (: wheee... slackk block in the canteen. lol, carmen was so funny can. she went to feed the BIRD. lol. and the bird flew away so quickly over

well, so my day was rather uneventful. was feeling so tired. so i took out my happy mask and hid my true self behind it. isnt life jus like that? arent we the puppets of this whole play most of the time? haha. then i happily dragged myself up for exco meeting. (: okay, was really looking forward to it cos my batch jus RAWKS! they are always there no matter what happens, so they really made me feel alot better. it's really like when the sky falls, they will hold it up for you! (: okay then exco meeting ended. went home with grace where we discussed cantata, camp and farewell! XD

how i wished i can say that with faith. yet it's so hard sometimes, with so many things pulling me down. it's harder to stand firm now. there are so many reasons for me to give up, but yet, im not going to. (: somehow i wish she would not view academics of so high importance, cos in the end, she's the one who's going to be really disappointed, not me. i do view my studies seriously, i do, really. but shining for HIM is just as important. it has made my commitment list long ago lah. and you of all pple should know that once i really get involved in something i wont not give in that much effort jus so that i cant get a good gpa score.


it will jus be so unfair. esp since i found a purpose in serving. after 3 years, it's my batch's turn. no way am i going to not contribute or contribute lesser just because my grades arent as perfect as you want them to be. the thing that i really cant get over with is that my marks arent really that bad to me! okay, i admit malay is. but then that isnt my mt in the first place!