jesus --lover of my soul--

2007-04-15T17:05:00.001+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!

I MOVED TO LIVEJOURNAL!
my lj link: relink!

but enchantingspells will still be here for memories. it has been here from year 1! yea. (:

i hope lj suits me. if not, i will come back! (:

2007-04-13T20:52:00.000+08:00

hello. i decided to post a super short post today since i haven posted for a long long time.

today was bad. yes.

but i learned something new today. gladys and ame taught it to me. it's called the clothes theory. it really is good! haha. let me state it down.

take for example, if someone with really bad taste says that your clothes are nice, then you'll be like oh no my clothes are really ugly! so actually it's a good thing for the person to NOT like your clothes. yup(:

really useful. (: i recommend it to everyone to use it when you feel very yuan wang. yah (:

somehow, i need to research on my reason for serving. if it wasnt for the people, would i even be there? if it wasnt for the joy and sense of accomplishment i get when i see their smiles, would i even be there?

..finding the reason to lend you a smile, to keep saltiness away and pouring those tears back..

2007-01-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

whee! today's sunday and 'twas fun! (:

okay, i shall blog about saturday. well, sat started with me talking to batch'08 about their planning of june camp and after that ora and banner painting. then we had kkmc fun day with kkmc youth. was brillant. really. at first i thought it would be quite boring, but the whole event proved me wrong. (:

haha so we were split into groups and i joined DR. NO! DR. NO is the ONE (group ONE and the best ONE you will ever see around. :D) well, group leader of dr no is ivan and he's really cool (see explanation at the later part) hmm so we started off with icebreakers. hahahaha. although all of us played the games before we still did have lots of fun; esp during curtain call. (:

yea, then proper games started. our first station was called "I love huckgummies". whoosh. sticky station indeed. not only were the gummies sticky, we had to use total eye and brain power to memorise the pattern then arrange the gummies. sticky situation eh? we were kinda stuck at some parts but overall wasnt too bad. :D

then nxt was spongebob inkpants. hehe. was supposed to pass a sponge covered with flour and soaked in water with your mouth down the group. hmm. okay, reason 1 why ivan is cool: he played when he didnt have to. yea. and the game was gross okay. eww. sponge dipped in water and flour-covered passed down the row and back. not really a good experience but was extremely fun cos you can see everyone jumping around and trying to spit out all the flour but gross. hahaha. now that i think of it, it's HILARIOUS. church camp shld try it someday. XD

okay, so after visiting spongebob inkpants, we went to see the smooth criminal next. whoosh. this is the dirtiest station ever. sliding your way across ground sheets filled with soapy detergent water on your tummy with a really small spoon in your mouth and your objective is to scoop the marbles with your spoon in your mouth. cool eh? okay so here's reason number 2 for why ivan is cool: he played! and once again he didnt need to. yea. i totally didnt play. haha. but if they had a showering slot scheduled i would have played. XD (pple who know me, are you reading this? *grins*) hahaha.

hmm. then games ended due to some prob. yup. LUNCH was next. (: kkmc catered for us! so good yea! felt rather bad about it. haha. lunch was yummy and everyone had the chance of talking to the kkmc youth. (:

then of course it was PRAISE AND WORSHIP! haha, michelle was worship leader and although she told us that she was really scared before that, she did extremely well. heh. (: and we being so nice batchmates sat in the first row especially for her! XD and well let's just say that the worship session felt like church ones so basically it's fantabulous.

next was devotion by brother eng hock. (is this how he spells his name?) anyway, his devotion topic was on friendship. really inspirational. when he asked me how many close frens i had, it really got me to ponder at that moment how many frens do i have that i would consider close. (: and his stories are really touching too. he's one of those speakers with charisma. :D

hahaha okay then it was the fun part. reuben (the mc) shared with us his life stories. amusing hilarious. yea (: really FUNKY. couldnt stop laughing. XD hahaha. then prize giving. LOL. our group won 2 stuff toys and they are really CUTE! :D love them all!

yea. so that mainly concludes the whole day. after that was jus cleaning up and some interaction before we went home. oh yea. i realised that some kkmc youth jus don look their age. the main i/c (i don know how to spell her name) of the day is 15! and she can jus pass off as a j1! haha then lionel can jus pass of as a 16. haha. ivan was telling me how he looks like a kid. (:

YUP. so that was basically my saturday with kkmc youth. was way beyond what i came expecting and really had lots and lots of fun. looking forward to april 7 then! (: as well as enrolment! :D

2006-11-19T20:35:00.000+08:00

okay, anw, since i blogged about cantata alr. i shall briefly go through all the stuff that happened these full months. well of course the pts and eoys were over, but the best thing was, WE WON NETBALL CARN! hahaha. LOVE MY CLASS! haha, but i was really nervous during the games. was so scared that the person defending me has a violent streak or something. hehe.

okay, then there was CLASS CHALET. hahaha. found out that yikai is scared of listening to ghost stories! *laughs* way unexpected. then we celebrated YAN's birthday. haha.

yup, that's the 2 major class things i guess. oh and well of course all the various class outings. (:

2006-11-19T19:57:00.000+08:00

whoa! i finally found the time to blog. *pats myself on the back and beams real wide*

anyway, cantata was yesterday! i tell you, we rawk. (: haha. it was wonderful. seeing those pple out there, watching our musical and hearing the gospel, it was really brillant. I don't know how much it impacted others, but at least they had the chance! and even though the play wasnt perfect, it was really the best given the amount of time we had!!

hmm, in the morning, woah. everyone came in really comfy wear! hahaha. but they just forgot that roll call cant be done in slippers!!! yea, so many did barefooted. so amusing to see that. i love love love 45TH!

okay then came all the tech run and i stuck all the candy canes!! although alicia laughed at me for sticking them the wrong way at first (not my fault okay, i was too engrossed in others matters), but it was FINALLY DONE! there were arnd 400 booklets, i was positive that i was going blind, considering the ks chee was so dark. yea.

yup, then when to settle the shirts with HILARY! hil jus rawks!!!lol. but serious. then finally came the afternoon show. we were rather unprepared as we were behind time. and i was rushing arnd like a mad person trying to settle last minute stuff like $$ hahaha. oh and i went to cut leaves off random trees in the sch cos our leaves were dried up alr. :D

afternoon show was okay i suppose, just small accidents here and there. then it was finally the NIGHT SHOW. gosh, i was nervous like crazy for the night one. cos the tickets sale was full house. but then... ELAINE AND YAN AND YIKAI cheated my feelings.. say they would come then didnt come. haha. but denise, isa, bocky and of course the all-so-ego jinning came! (:

yet, the best part was...... the SENIORS! haha. like senior xinyee who is in uni came! haha, although with HER senior whom is really ancient. gosh. but the more recent seniors are like '05 trinity, '06 trinity and charissa. oh and also most of batch'06 turned up! (: seniors rawk.

heh, then nat camp plt mates came too! tgther with sir. haha. courtesy of alicia! who went ALL THE WAY to invite them. (ps. but i paid for their tickets first, haha.) hmm. yup, but then donovan the jonovan didnt turn up. tsk. haha, and they were nice enough to wait for me after cantata. (:

we really had a wonderful time! haha. and JUDITH was soooo cute! although she made me soooo red in the face can. haha. but she was JUST SO CUTE!!! haha. along with zhen er's brother. hahahahahaha, i think zhen er's brother is scared of me now. cos i kept telling him how cute he was and in the end he ran to zhen er. lol. ahhh, but basically, all the little kids were so adorable!

and of course, the sec 4 seniors must be thanked profusely. michelle, margie, val, lianne, charissa and hilary. they simply are the best! (: ESP michelle who was the assistant stage manager. without her right, i think i would have fainted. haha, okay, maybe not that exaggerated. but it's there lah, she really really is the very very very nice senior (: hehe. all in all, i love my seniors! haiz

okay, i shall end my really long post (sufficient to make up the long time that i haven blogged). and tmr i have to start WEP. ): till nxt time, canTATA!

2006-09-07T09:47:00.000+08:00

argh. okay. shall blog about my wed and thurs.

had bio extra classes on wed. sigh. as usual, mr tee gave us his usual lecture lah. ): and then there is this girl from alicia's class who is SO WEIRD. i mean, the ppt slides are okay! tsk. and mr tee was so nice okay, changing the colours of the ppt for her. LOL everyone can see loh, don know why she cannot see. i think she makes the weirdest comment. -.-'' if his ppt turns to black and white, it's her fault. tsk. and mr tee sounded really disappointed too. BLEH. XD

haha. then we had nat camp plt online crapping session at night! hahaha. yea. (: LOL i pity jonovan loh, they tease him so much. hehehehehe. but it was rather fun watching. (: then there was eugene&jonovan's funny camp song. hahaha. eugene and alicia were like doing a duet! eugene started off with one line then alicia continued. hahaha, though i want to ask "alicia when did you betray gb and join the ncc youths!!" was so funny, chin boon sir couldnt take it, cos the "ncc youths", as they called themselves, were insulting the BB.

WHEE okay thurs. (: went to assisi home and hospice. the kids were cute! haha. the old folks were pretty nice too. we played monopoly with them for an hour plus. wahh, it was pretty tiring speaking so much dialect. then i went over to the kids section and celebrated Leo's (the little boy) birthday! so cool! haha. then i saw this really really really really really CUTE LITTLE BOY!!!!! hahaha. he wore a red cap and looks really cute in it! XD

okay then left the centre and went to j8 to go home! haha, but bought a sock for my mp3. hehe. my first present for myself this holz! (: although very small but still very happy. LOL. and guess what, it's GREEN BLACK WHITE in colour. wahahaha, so loyal to RAFFLES right? (: hmm, when i first entered rg, thought green black white as sch colours was a really funny combi, but now i think it RAWKS. whee! RAFFLES ICHIBAN! (:

okay, i have officially gone nuts, but then rg rawks! (: whee!! blehh XD okay, shall go do the numerous pts now!

2006-09-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

... yet in the end, things would never be the same!

lol. today's so boring. there's absolutely nothing interesting to do at home! arghh.. hate it. blehh. today's agenda was to study acids bases salts so that i can do my chem pt. but progress is so excruciatingly slowwwww..

and im blogging cos i have nth else to do to entertain myself. argh. i have even swapped phones with my bro! this shows the extent of my boredom. ): and im starting to feel stony.. ):

oh no. this is doing no good to me to make me feel more hyped up. so goodbye blog. i wish there wasnt so much pt to do in this hols. ):

2006-08-31T20:07:00.000+08:00

PLATOON OUTING! whee! (: lol. love love echo platoon1! (: and my batch too! (:

okay, so after tchers day, i chiong down to sthildas! (: whee. saw mr koh, mr soong, and chen lao shi! lol, mr soong got so much white hair now loh. XD and saw quite a few of my primary school classmates: jourdan, joy, chuan yi, jeremy tan, jeremy yap, michelle wong, huikiat! lol. hopefully i didnt miss out any. yea. hahaha. all of them look so grown up now, compared to the last time! and i managed to talk abit to everyone, except for huikiat! i realised i didnt get to say a HELLO to him at all. i jus SAW him and then left. lol. but he looks the same, jus that more mature. eh. hmm.

waited at sthildas for marcus to come.. his sch ended so late. was supposed to reach lido by 1, but then we were still at shps at 12.40. LOL. (: ahh. then actually wanted to cab down, but then jonathan sir said take our time, so we decided to not waste money to cab. (: yea. oh and i realised marcus has this really cool apple strap thing! XD haha. yea, so both of us arrived fashionably late (tsk marcus. all your sch's fault), although we were in time for the movie. yup, so then we bought tickets for monster house! hahaha. then we drew tickets. (: at first was sitting beside eugene and sir, but then we changed it, hehe, cos i don really like my sitting! XD so yea, sat beside marcus and cher-e then. haha. then me and cher-e started being lame.

this is what happened: me and cher-e started a "let's get to know each other session" and we started talking like weirdos! and the whole plt started to "not know" us. heh. but it entertained our plt okay! lol. but plt was so funny during the movie. keep saying i can be like the girl riding tricycle.

lol, so after the movie, we went to esplanade. to take photos. how cool right. so we slacked inside the esplanade (got air con), yup, and we took photos! yea. and alicia and i provided entertainment by reacting the whole batch tcher's day skit! (: we rawk. hahahaha. though it was really LAME. yea, so we chatted there until arnd 6? haha. then we walked to bugis to have dinner. (: yea, then after dinner we went home. lol, our platoon got alot of pple living in the east! got me, chin boon sir, eugene and marcus. haha. although marcus doesnt really stay very in the east. i would consider it more centralised. (:

haha, my batch rawked tchers day performance! everyone laughed at us. (:

yay! today is such a great day! (:

2006-08-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

"Collapsing was much softer, still, falling hurts the most."

hah. how much longer can i hold it in? it's closing in now, so quickly. im escaping, but it's trapping me in so tightly. arghh. today's really bad. chem started of with me not understanding what he was saying and my chem file splitting, causing all my notes to fall out. then math. i cant believe math assignment slipped off my mind, i forgot to do it, how great. yay. but luckily mrs ang didnt want it today. (: hehe. okay then came recess, whee. bought myself new chem file. okay then came philo! haha, both blocks cheered me up alot! lol. then chi. ): got SA back, and i almost failed. haiz. then lunch! but ms siow took it away for physics. so lunch was gone. arghh and right after lunch was eng expo test! and lunch was robbed away! tsk. lol. then eng. got brain block. ahh. think i wrote out of point. lol. and then RS! (: wheee... slackk block in the canteen. lol, carmen was so funny can. she went to feed the BIRD. lol. and the bird flew away so quickly over

a group of girls that they screamed. tsk carmen. haha.

"Life's a show, and sadly, we're the cast."

well, so my day was rather uneventful. was feeling so tired. so i took out my happy mask and hid my true self behind it. isnt life jus like that? arent we the puppets of this whole play most of the time? haha. then i happily dragged myself up for exco meeting. (: okay, was really looking forward to it cos my batch jus RAWKS! they are always there no matter what happens, so they really made me feel alot better. it's really like when the sky falls, they will hold it up for you! (: okay then exco meeting ended. went home with grace where we discussed cantata, camp and farewell! XD

"I'm the playwright of my show, I call the shots here."

how i wished i can say that with faith. yet it's so hard sometimes, with so many things pulling me down. it's harder to stand firm now. there are so many reasons for me to give up, but yet, im not going to. (: somehow i wish she would not view academics of so high importance, cos in the end, she's the one who's going to be really disappointed, not me. i do view my studies seriously, i do, really. but shining for HIM is just as important. it has made my commitment list long ago lah. and you of all pple should know that once i really get involved in something i wont not give in that much effort jus so that i cant get a good gpa score.

"Pouring raindrops back into the clouds."

it will jus be so unfair. esp since i found a purpose in serving. after 3 years, it's my batch's turn. no way am i going to not contribute or contribute lesser just because my grades arent as perfect as you want them to be. the thing that i really cant get over with is that my marks arent really that bad to me! okay, i admit malay is. but then that isnt my mt in the first place!

"In riddles and in rhymes"

cant wait for term to close. (: then i can sort out everything again in preparation for a brand new term! THANK YOU TWIN FOR being so funny!! (: haha. i will buy you a very nice xmas present and write you more nice testis (:

2006-08-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

hmm. okay. week 10 yay! (: lessons passed as normal, but hist was a free block! (: okay, then laine and i were eating sweets. lol. then i started getting high. lol. sugarrush. tsk laine, all her fault. hehe. but sweets were very nice. okay, then had bio. ahh. he soo boring de! ): was trying so hard to keep awake. yay, then math. (: was rather fun today. grp work for most of the lesson.

then after sch GB! (: whee!! okay, although my batch was seriously unprepared. ): the teachers told us last min that they wont be down, so that would mean that badgework was cancelled since badgework is taken by the tchers. and also devotion, as we were left in our squads to discuss the gospel of peace. but devotion wasnt that bad, since we had a topic to work on. (: ahh, and my batch had tcher's day full dress rehearsal today! so that would mean that there would be no seniors there to lead the coy can! LOL. haha. and me and alicia jus skipped the whole rehearsal cos we couldnt leave if not no tchers and no seniors, i don know how we can carry on a meeting. lol.

lol, so after that.. came DRILL. whoa. i almost went crazy. hahah. cos alicia went off to our batch to get pple to come back to help take drill. and it so happened that they were doing the skit at that time, so they kinda stayed there for like 30 mins?!?!? leave me with the whole coy! lol. so i entertained them for like 5 mins, then ran out of stuff to entertain them alr. yea. i think i rawk, cos all the juniors were laughing. (:

okay, so then, i decided that stoning wasnt a good thing, so i told everyone to get onto the netball courts to do DRILL! yea! so that was what happened. i commanded 4 contingents, of different drill levels. yea. i was soo confused at the end of the first 10 mins. i was doing fall-in procedure+ long commands + short commands + static drill all at one go. LOL. i think i simply rawk. (: yea.

lol, so after half an angonising hour later, my oh-so-wonderful batchmates decided to come back! okay, only niel, mich and alicia did. but they saved my life lah. cos i was really so confused that the sec 1s were telling me that i can don drill them first. x.x yea. so then drill functioned normally again! (: whee. i think my sec2s rawks. although really sorry for all the wrong commands given. XD

okay, then refreshments and vesper! (: haha. and we released them early cos there wasnt anything else to do. yay. finally, i went for our rehearsal. lol. (: and it's going to rawk. haha. (: the sch better laugh on thurs if not we are going to feel so malulated. haha. XD yay, so that concluded my high and confused and happy day! (:

2006-08-26T19:19:00.000+08:00

whee! (: today is PROMOTION AND DEDICATION 2006! (:

haha. okay, we went to sch for batch meeting in the morning! haha. practiced our tcher's day skit and had polished boots as a batch! hahah. it seriously was a very very good batch bonding time. XD okay, then we decided to order in KFC for lunch. (: good life right? but the bill was $52! x.x so we paid $5.80 which was rather reasonable i suppose. heheh. had alot of fun eating as a batch! go batch! love ya! (: haha, BUT, we couldnt finish the all the food. hmm.... and guess what. SHARON happened to be in school. heheh, so we being the VERY NICE, gave sharon our nuggets and coleslaw. XD okay, a better word for "gave" would be "forced". (: sharon tried paying us, but we wouldnt accept. so in the end we came to a compromise, which is that the nxt time her batch has too much food and donates it to us, we would accept it without paying her. lol. (:

okay so after our oh-so-wonderful batch morning, we quickly changed into our uniform and went for P&D. yea. we got there on time. and then it all started. hahaha. CPL and SGT and SSG. and not forgetting the highest rank/honour a cadet can achieve: the PBB! yay! haha. we have 9 PBB this year, out of the 80 PBB in singapore. pro right? haha. but but, the BEST BEST news is that we have 5 PBB with DISTINCTION out of the 21 that achieved distinction. gosh. i think batch06 simply rawk. my sec4s are the best. (: haha. other coys only max 3 pbb with dist, but we have 5. whee! i want to be a PBB nxt yr! haha, but of course must get my SSG first. (: then hopefully can get PBB with dist. then it would be the best audieu i can get from gb if i don join post-sec.

haha. okay. so that was basically P&D for me this yr. (: shall end off with what i found was very meaningful today for me. (: It's really very very true.

"Commitments are not emotions.
Commitments are never based on abilities.
Commitments always depends on choice, never conditions."

2006-08-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

"Tears are the words that the heart can't say".

whee! (: tmr's p&d! yay, our promotion finally. (:

okay thursday has been rather fulfuiling to me cos i had quite abit of time to catch up onwork! lol. 3 more working sch days and it's the sept hols! (: im pretty looking forward to them! yay.

lol. although we have so many pts to do. ): got ss, physics, hist and chem. ): and still got math and philo test to study for. blehh.

2006-08-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my oh my. i have seriously, totally and officially gone mad. i mean it. i mean. im like FEELING the PINCH of batch06 being taken away. like NOW. when handover was 23 days ago. how crazy am i? i seriously think im undergoing some unstability in my mental state of emotions. ahhh. i want my sec4s back...... goodness. and our batch song is stuck to my head, and the last time we came tgther and sing it was like JUNE. see how mentally unstable i am now? lol, i don know whether to look forward to farewell or not. i don want them to officially pass out, but i cant wait for the performances by our batch! XD

yay week 9! (: haha, one more week till end of term 3! (: hahahah. yay. okay. im quite high after gb. then went for malay. which cikgu was being quite nice. haha. he made us do so much writing activities today. blehh. XD

whee! cant wait for CANTATA at the end of the yr! haha. MUST COME OKAY! it will totally rawk! (: haha, hopefully alot of pple will turn up. then it will be a success! but then again. any gb production is a success alr. XD to me at least, cos we really do put in alot of effort!

lol. okay, chi pt ended. so glad. although it was abit screwed for transition. blehhh. but nvm lah. hahaha. yikai was soo guy-looking in my hoodie. hahaha go yikai the little boy! (:

oh yea, our batch is going to perform for tchers day loh! haha. im going to be so embarrassed! lol. cos we are really very LAME! not that that is a bad thing. haha, i love all our lame and corny performances. but this time is in front of the WHOLE school. lol. okay. me and bj were saying that we are going to get our classmates to get us packed recess/lunch for 2 weeks after tchers day, cos we will be so embarrassed. lol. XD the sch better get our jokes mann.

2006-08-15T17:30:00.000+08:00

whee! haha. okay. so happy thay chi indiv pt is OVER! (: okay, i shall blog about day 2-4 of national camp 06 now! (: haha. day 1 is somewhere like 2 days ago i think. XD

DAY TWO
okay, we reported at 6.30am. haha, day 2's itinerary is PAINTBALL, MOUNTAIN BIKING EXPEDITION, KAYAKING and DRAGON BOAT! hahaha. very very fun!

okay so after we ate breakfast, which was western on day 2, we started paintball! paintball in the army is so organised and disciplined if that is the right word. cos you have to line up in rows of 10 then walk in this orderly fashion to sit down on the benches to wait for your turn to shoot at the dummy-targets. hahaha, firing was so funny. everyone had to listen to the command, then pick up the guns together, remove the stoppers together and then wait for the command then can fire. lol. after that you have to listen to the command again and walk off in a straight line again. lol. felt like i was a prisoner waiting to be interrogated. XD okay, then we shoot at the houses, sigh. wasnt fun. paintball during march camp last yr was so much better as we got to shoot again each other so it was like a stimulated war-game. heh. CAPTURE THE FLAG!

hmm, then after paintball we had mountain biking expedition. lol. it was arnd 5 km. and my partner was jn. alicia partnered geraldine. and both amelina and adeline didnt do it cos they didnt know how to bike. aww. so sad. yea. haha. and then we stopped at our first station to play platoon games! (: they split up us into 2 smaller groups and the games was to stack our shoes up as high as possible but stable at the same time. yea, our grp lost the height section, cos the other grp had someone with BOOTS! and 1 more pair of shoes. yea. hahaha. but we won the stability part. (:

yup, after lunch ECHO COY went KAYAKING and DRAGON BOAT-ing! haha. okay kayaking. was tiring and was seriously pissed at the end of kayaking. heh. cos i kept getting caught in the crossfire of water fights! arghh. the boys kept splashing water lah. so stupid. it's like they are attacking each other, but cos rafted up then i was in the middle then keep getting wet. ): heh. but so glad i didnt get fibre glass cuts. geraldine got ALOT, seriously, then amelina also had quite alot, and jn and alicia all had some. ouch. heh. im so lucky. (:

okay, then went back to change for the opening ceremony at night. yea. BB piped!! ahhh. how come nvr ask us to pipe or drum!!! haha. okay, echo coy was isolated at the other end of the beach so yea, didnt really get to see the performance. we jus chatted and i got a nice green lightsticks! i love light sticks! (: okay, im weird.

then after performance we went back, had supper and went to bed! (:

DAY THREE
whee! (: third day of camp! we did RADIO-CONTROLLING, LINE-CONTROLLING, FIELD-COOKING, RAPPELLING, ARCHERY and STANDARD OBSTACLES COURSE!

radio-controlling and line-controlling was basically controlling the flight of a toy plane with lines or the radio. the line one was fun!! haha, turn and turn round in circles to watch/control the plane. (: radio controlling was cool too! (: the sir could do alot of stunts. pro.

okay then came field cooking which was enjoyable except for the briefing part. whoosh. the lady who briefed us was the STRICTEST mdm in the camp i bet. so scary de. haha. and she wouldnt let us choose our own groups for cooking. but i suppose she had her reasons lah, like maybe all the girls will be in a grp then all the guys will be in a grp. haha, then guys usually don know how to cook very well de mah (no offence). so yah. she chose our grpings. whee! but so happy i got jn. (: okay so we made pizza bread and cupcakes. eh. the fire-starting was fuuny. everyone was fanning so furiously. (: then the whole place was so smoky. okay then baked the food. our cupcakes ended up 'chao-ta' the bottom. not bad right. hahahah (;

after lunch we went to do SOC, rappelling and archery. wahh. did SOC first. haha. it was rather fun for all the stations except the balancing beam one. ): ahh... hahaha, was so so scared. was supposed to walk up this steps thing, then balanced yourself through the logs then jump down at the end of it. haha. the steps thing was so SCARY! ): haha, but then alvin sir helped me lah. alvin sir so nice! was seriously freaked out and was crying haha, but i still finished it lah. yay, thank you sir! cos he let me hold his wrist if not i wouldnt have dared to continue walking. whee. okay, but then i jumped down at the wrong place at the end. was supposed to jump off at the sand pit part but was so scary that i jus jumped off at the grass patch. heh. got "scolded" by alicia jn they all, say i very dumb. haha, but what i can say when i really freaked! lol

okay, then rappeling and archery! archery was super cool!!!!! hahaha. okay jus shoot shoot the arrow but jonathan sir very funny. his own shooting skills not that good still dare laugh at us. huh. haha. lol.

okay then came in the part where it pissed all the rgs pple in my echo1 platoon off. the mdm oic was so irresponsible. i pity all the sirs that had to work with her for the camp. argh. okay. nvm. then the closing ceremony of camp and campfire. haha. camp opens and closes in 1 day. yea. so there was alot of performances and fun. but our acho platoon 1 was quite busily talking at the back. hahaha, about tommy and ahem. hehe. oh yea, and eugene the guy who went to wear my hairband. he picked it up somewhere and then i realised it was mine. lol. haha, and realised we had a monkey in the platoon. (: laughed soooo hard at him. okay i was mean. but he really looked like one. XD

yup, so campfire went on for arnd 3 hrs.. haha. and then eugene keep saying we(rgs girls) very scary. cos our cheers are low. and he kept asking us for demo. haha. we did demo in the end, during the pass-it-on song. hahahaha. (: then after campfire we went to have echo platoon 1 time! played polar bear. hehehehehe, was the polar bear. so funnyyy. okay then took PHOTOS! which i shall put them here.

whee! echo platoon 1!

the 5 of us!

2006-08-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

whoosh. now is 12.34am haha. and im still stuck with chi. (: hehe. finishing soon though. ahh. so hard to write.

hahaha. jonovan said he don like shirley(shld be spelt like that) but i don believe him loh.. during campfire night eugene say he wanted her number! haha, and jonovan admitted it lah. heheheh. nc-o6 echo platoon 1 got quite a few budding pairs eh. hahah. got tommy and _ _ _ _ _ _ and jonovan and her. hahahaha. kk, alicia don kill me okay? i know you think only enormous is cute. hehe. (: so funny. hehe jonovan said he went to tell his frens that i said monkey looks like monkey and his frens almost died laughing. hehe. but he really looks like the monkey in lion king! jus that with specs but it makes him more monkey-ish! hehe. his face is really hilarious. (: ahhh. miss echo platoon 1!

hahaha, yay alvin sir said he would give me chevrons!! whee! (: they have soo many chevrons okay! not like gb. hehe. so cool to have so many! i love chevrons! makes me feel very important. hehe. (: lol.

haha, okay, i shall go back to chi pt! (: gambete to myself!

2006-08-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

whoa. jus came back from national camp 2006! (:

it seriously rawked. Echo company Platoon 1; my one and only 1!

haha, okay except for some pple whom i shall leave them out. heh. (:

DAY ONE
whee! haha, okay, we reported at gbhq at 7!!! mdm collected all our phones. ): haha. then told us all the usual rules lah. after that we were driven to the camp site. hahaha, i must say we were rather productive during our bus ride. heh. zoe, alicia and me did camp comm 2007 tentative members as well as sorted out what events we are going to lead for the nxt yr. (: haha. i hope we rawk nxt yr. okayokay. im digressing. yea.

so after i suppose like 1/2 an hour later, we reached the PASIR LEBA CAMPSITE. did i spell it correctly? yup, then i was sorted out to ECHO COMPANY PLATOON ONE! (: okay, and guess what?? i got ALICIA, JIN NING, AMELINA and GERALDINE in my platoon too! haha, so lucky right? i didnt even expect to be in a same coy as 1 rgs girl loh, haha, so i was very very happy when i got 4! (: haha. my overall i/c was mdm lydia, my platoon leaders were robin sir, jonathan sir and chin boon sir! (: hahaha. my CSMs were all called terrence so mdm lydia called them the T1 and T2.

okay, so after that we were given our goodie bag which contained alot alot of stuff. yea, and then we walked all the way to the girls' bunk which was at block M. the guys were at block J. heh. yea, our bunk was at the 5th level room 7. my bunk pple were jin ning, amelina, geraldine, alicia, adeline (not the rgs one), azizah, jiayi, brenda, shirley(i don know how to spell her name) and of course me! total of 10. we had alot of time to unpack and we chatted abit lah. and the bunk is so spacey! (: and comfortable too!

okay we had lunch. although the cookhse 3 was seriously PACKED. 2 coys tgther loh. 1 coy 6 platoon with 1 platoon arnd 30 pple. wahhh. do the math. anw. lunch wasnt bad, although the uncles and aunties really give alot of food leh. hehe. eat until all of us all bloated.

then after lunch we had our first activity of the day! (: we did rock climbing, street soccer, frisbee and indoor challenge. yea. street soccer wasnt particularly enjoyable for me lah, haha, cos i not very cut out to play soccer lah, so unlike the boys in my team. hehe. but well done anyway, they managed to score without the girls' help. (: *applause!* yup, the frisbee didnt go very well too, cos the wind kept blowing the frisbee off course. rock climbing was okay. and indoor challenge was jus to pass some obstacle course thing which was rather fun but lame at the same time. heh.

then dinner. dinner more or less the same, jus that there was lesser pple. okay, then SHOWER time. yea, the thing that gets tiddy really high. okay, although tiddy didnt shower cos tiddy figured there wasnt any point in doing so as we were most likely going to get sweaty again later. and also because there was going to be firedrill and it would only leave us with 15 min to shower. haha. so yea, surprise surprise for someone so clean and didnt shower when the chance came.

okay, then campers night. it was basically mingle mingle mingle. haha. got to know my platoon mates' names. hehe. then we played DOUBLE WHACKO! heh, tommy very funny. lol, cos he was the whacker, then someone keep calling tommy tommy tommy, then tommy said "tommy what tommy lah, i tommy leh" then whack him on the head. LOL. this is what happens when you don know other pple name except for tommy's. yea. and i didnt get called at all, cos pple all cant get my name. heh. (:

okay, then we were released for the night. went to SHOWER. yea. by then i was really looking forward to it. (: okay. nvm. then went to sleep.

--- end of day 1---

okay, that was really really long for 1 day. i shall blog about day 2 another time! (:

2006-08-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

ahh... look up at the stars!

okay, im being random. and today is thursday, almost 3 days has past since handovel on monday. ): and i desperately miss the sec4s! ahh.

well, handover went well! haha, and we all had good food for refreshments!!! whee! cos AGAPE was on duty! yay, VAL, JOLYN and SHANA! (: hmm, then we handed over to our new leaders! hahaha, i had alot of fun handing over to gladys! (: well, though a larger portion of fun came from picking presents for her. XD uhh, then came the passing of the colours! will miss trinity'06, they are really an INTERESTING combination, with lina who is slightly CRAZY, margie who is nuts about DISNEY and of course michelle who is, like amelia always says, an ANGEL! haha. (:

2006-07-30T21:02:00.000+08:00

helplessness.

i don want i don want i don want!!!!!!!!!! i don want the 31st of july. i hate it. absolutely loathe it. it's making me weak and sad and depressed. it's distracting me from my work! arghh.

31st july. Although it is harry potter's birthday, it is HANDOVER. i dont want handover.. it's like the PILLAR OF SUPPORT is gone. no more turning to batch 06 when help is needed. no more assurance that no matter what happens, batch 06 will handle it. no more knowing that no matter what problem occurs, the sec4s will be able to solve it.

BATCH 06 is the batch im closest to. probably because i spend 3 out of my 4 years in GB with them. from me first coming into GB, all lost and clueless, to my third year now, facing the handover which seems to approach so quickly.

no more seniors left in this school. no more seniors to look up to. no more seniors to whine to. ARGH. this is so idiot. why must batch 06 graduate. huh. why cant the sch jus fail the whole batch06. hehe. okay, im being ridiculous. (:

argh. i give up.

2006-07-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

woohoo! INTER-UG was yesterday! (: hahah, our batch won the performance section! whee! (: kk, i shall talk about inter-ug.

first, we had roll call and the trinity stuck pieces of paper on our back that indicated our group name and group number. i was in group 12 and it's called princess Diana. lol, jinning was placed in some other group cos her ncc seniors resorted them or something. yea, so i had no sec3 that i really knew in my group. ): then came games! MICHELLE CHEONG was the games I/C. heh, she was so cute. hehe. (: games was okay, although it wasnt exactly very engaging. lol, for the RCY bandage station our groupp dressed our model up as a spokeswoman for MAMA LEMON. cool right. hehe. (: then the background music was SPONGEbob squarepants. haha, the SPONGE FOR MAMA LEMON! yea.

haha, then came CONCERT TIME! our batch was the first item of the day and i must say we kicked off the concert section rather well! although we didnt complate the whole performance. heh, and it was really impromptu. lol, i think my batch rawks! yay go batch '07! (: i was a rcy-er and a npcc(sea)-er for a while and i had a GREAT TIME ACTING MY PART! haha, i think RCY part really rawks. XD hahah, i will nvr forget [boom boom boom , no piank!] although it was rather mean towards the ncc. okay, the guides part was rather mean to them too. heh, okay, sorry to anyone who was offended! but most pple enjoyed it i suppose cos we made everyone laugh! (: hahaha. and grace was BRILLANT haha, her "island is too far away from the audience, so now the island will move infront" was the BEST. XD we won FIRST!

kk, i shall go do LSL now. XD tmr's RHD. gonna see ame and carmen dance, go 305 and 303!

2006-07-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

GB day today! yay. haha, reach school early in the morning to get ready. and my boots actually SHONE! even though i bought them on friday. hehe. but that was cos i chiong polish for 3 days, 3-4 hours each then can shine one... hahah. hmm. parade went rather well overall. (: although chin wei fainted. it was scary, i was so shocked that i gasped (which isnt something that is common to tiddy) yea, her chin was bleeding badly. poor chinwei, her first gb day ended like that. ): but it was the sight that was so shocking, she literally fell face down. ): kk, i got my FORTNIGHT CARDS TOO! (: which means MONEY! hahaha. shall bug all my frens to donate. XD

NDP FANCY DRILL RAWKS! i have never love drill more than i have during fancy drill. (: it's like an INTER-UG interaction and doing drill at the same time! i think the guides are really nice, the ncc are really cute and the rcy are really great! (: and it's really fun although i perspire alot. whee hahah. had lots of fun drawing the heart today but it ended up lopsided to the other half of the heart. XD but we finished the whole drill procedure today (a rather graet accomplishment considering we only did 4 last week) i cant wait for fancy drill prac again! and i seriously think this sort of inter-UG stuff is better as we have fun and do serious stuff at the same time, okay, maybe it shouldnt be drill, but something more interactive where we can talk more.

INTER-UG day! haha, it's this coming wed the 19th july. hope it will go well(: it's a ncc-gb-rcy-gg-npcc(sea) day. yupps. although i have no idea why ncc(air) is not joining. batch gonna put up and item and im a npcc-sea girl! yohooo! 3 cheers to the SEA-ssy. but we are gonna rawk. sigh, although i still miss being a rcy. so funnnnnnn i want to tease the ncc....... ):
haha, but i think we should have more inter-ug activities than jus a day where all of us come together. it doesnt really achieve much jus with one day. even if it is one day, we should have it FULL DAY! so we can do more stuff and get to know each other more! (: haha, nvm. i think inter-UG will rawk in the end.

okay! this is a long long post which is going to make up for me not blogging for quite a while. sigh. kk, i should get back to my work. i haven started on anything! and there's so much to do!

2006-07-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

yes! we finished bio! whee. very very happy. (: ahh finally. although i screwed up the presentation. hiyah. but i really cant be bothered alr.

hmm. interacted with cousins alot this few days. yay i think all my kor kor(s) and jie jie(s) rawk! (: haha. but it's quite shocking to know the age gap between my cousins and me.. but it's really fun talking to them and knowing more stuff from their POV and it's really a new degree of learning-from the more experienced! (:

yay, gb day coming! (: then it means the start of gb fortnight! which means MONEY to count... ahahahahahah.

lol. nvm. im crapping. kae, till nxt time then! (:

2006-06-28T19:43:00.000+08:00

wheee!!! WE FOUND THE COLOURS!!!!!!!! IM AM OVERJOYED!!!!!! the COLOURS!!!!!!

ahhhh! hahaha, yay, we found the colours in time. (: i really cant imagine open house without the colours, worse still GB DAY without COLOURS. was really really sad when ms leow told us during camp that she will not apply for a new colours cos we deserved it as we lost our colours. but im really glad we got it back. (: yay. well, i suppose the thing that i cant imagine most is enrolment next year without COLOURS! what is the church going to say? and what will shirim pipe in?

thank god. haha, me and zhen er prayed immediately after we know that the colours was found. oh gosh. im very very very very very very happy. (: hahahah. nono. it's going to be very embarrassing to march in for GB DAY without colours. it's like marching in of the colour party with the Colours. it's really going to be embarrassing. sigh. haha. SO HAPPY WE FOUND IT! YAY!!!!! (:

2006-06-21T21:14:00.000+08:00

JUNE CAMP! 19th june to 21st june!

haiz, june camp finally came. haha. camp ended today. well, camp went as well as we could have possibly have. does that make sense? nvm, my mind is down in the drains and my thoughts are now fumbled for forgive my senseless typing. argh.

day 1:

Paddle culture was fun! did raft-building, sea-kayaking and canoe-polo. BATCH'07 really rawked raft-building! yay! We took a reallly LONG while to build our raft but the end-product was COOL! haha. but it was really interesting. then we moved on to the canoe-polo station. argh, the station master jeremy was so mean to us. haha. cos i was captain with rowena, then he keep coming and pushing me far far away from the game, and the thing that get on my nerves most is that he keep splashing water at me! ARGH. BIG BULLY. haha. then later ame throw the ball over and i caught it lah. but then after like 3 seconds i lost my balance and fell into the pool. then that coach jeremy say not counted. argh.. he told us he was a acs(b) old boy, no wonder he so lame. then later he told me to put the bread onto the top of the tent, which is very very very very very high up when i asked him where he wants the bread to be placed. lol. FINALLY came sea-kayaking. partnered ame. (: and it was fun! although water kept getting into my eyes and it hurt like crazy. enjoyed kayaking the most. haha although the coaches at this station were super strict and meant business. yup, so that ended paddle culture!

NIGHTWALK! (: yay, i was with hilary at the netball courts cum squash courts area. was supposed to scare pple. haha, but the most hilarious thing i saw was when i was guiding peiling and then lina arrived with melinda. yup, and melinda was the faster walker and then both of them banged into each other. haha. then they were like feeling each other's arms like examining them. haha, then then they look so funny! haha, lina and i were trying so hard not to laugh. but i was tired after a while... and i slept on the netball courts for like 10 mins before another person came. haha, and there was this lonely star in the sky. it was so small. but it was bright. (: yeaa...

yup, so then day 1 ended. was quite alright. okay, here comes day 2!

DAY 2!

morning games! haha, was at raffkes room (: but i want to play yikai's station! it's so fun! haha, yup, it was well!

then came urban hike! i was at j8! haha.

2006-05-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

sigh. how long have i not blogged? haha, i have no idea myself. my life is like dead. the only time where i feel happy and high and alive is during school or my friends! hahaha. (: but sigh.

Ms Siow jus changed out seating arrangements! SAD! i hate it! i don want! lol, but then, what to do. haha. but the saddest thing is that we didnt manage to have the last group time together before we split while the other groups have because Mr Toh (eng was last block on fri) decided to split us up for eng group work. ): boo. i will miss my group, haha, all those crappy group times and laughter we shared as a group for 1 term and 9 weeks! haha, let me elaborate! lol. im feeling like ame currently.

ZHIXIAN! the NUTTER of our GROUP! but all the same, i will miss her! lol, although i freak at her geisha moves or whatever she does to yan yee, i will TOTALLY MISS IT COS IT WILL NVR BE THE SAME WITHOUT HER! haha, yah, and i mean it. XIAN is like the JOY in my group! always makes me laugh like crazy. haha. she always will say some ridiculous stuff about *ahem. but then she nvr fails to amuse me. (: whee xian! all in all, i think you RAWK! going to miss her in my group like crazy. ): and i will nvr forget you and yan's husband-and-wife thing! (: [xian, i bet if you ever ever manage to get to my blog, you would be super happy when you read this right? cos you always like to say "i know you will miss me right?"] lol. (:

YANYEE! the BABY of our GROUP! lol, actually i don know what to describe you, but you always whine and like to sa jiao so i decided that you are the baby! hahahaha. (: yay! yan, among our group i know you for the longest time de! haha. and i think you are very funny! hahaha, all the different things you do with xian during class time and turn around and see me and addy "puking" and looking grossed-out. (: hahahah, and how xian would then say " i know you all jealous of us right?" hahah. (: sigh, all the different memories we shared! (: oh! and of course you and you million husbands and wives! like xian! (: rawk on BABY!

ADELINE! the GUY of our GROUP! haha, aka ADDY NEO! lol, and i know how much you hate it when pple call you "guy" lol. XD my sitting partner for so long. and i still remember how you were when we first started out as a group! so QUIET! like churchmouse like that! (: heh. but now, you are like a totally different person! you crap, bitch, talk rubbish, make me laugh and amused and disgusted! haha, so sad we cannot sit together anymore. ): going to be damn weird not having lessons with you sitting beside me. lol. no more joking around in class with you and laughing at yan and xian together or giving weird looks at jolene, elaine and peiting {although i must say i am highly amused whenever i hear elaine's irritated "what?!?!?"} ;p laine's gonna kill me if she ever reads this. lol. don know lah, jus that lessons are not going to be the same without our group! don you agree!?!?! i know you do although you may nvr say that out loud! haha. XD and no more "feasting" or talking crap or having discussions about certain tchers in class anymore! lol. will miss sitting with you at the back of the class!

yea! and that is my all-so-wonderful group that i have grown to love! actually, i didnt notice it until Ms Siow said that we are going to change places and it suddenly struck me as how much i will miss our crazy-crappy-random group. im like the only member of my group who is still sitting in the same position, jus that i am now sitting addy's place, still at the last row, and still a 4-member group, but group times would nvr be the same as before! and i jus realise that if there is chinese group time, there is only me and sandra! lol, since sorna and arathi sits in from of me if i am not wrong. lol, my only comfort is that i am still at the last row and at MY original row, not the window one or the door one. (: kk, i shall stop blogging and this is seriously one of teh longest post i have ever posted this year! XIAN YAN AND ADDY! I WILL MISS ALL OUR GROUP TIMES! (:

2006-04-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

woah. haven blogged for like soo long. haha, basically march camp i love underground UG and batch '06 item alot. hahah,cant believe nxt year will be batch'07 turn! wahahahha. we are sooo going to rawk. (:

cant wait for june camp. esp urban hike. (: oh, and i love barley the dinisaur like crazy. think im a nutter? yah, i am, sadly. wheeee hahahah. feeling ultra high. cos we jus finished the eng compo on ballroom dancing that mr toh wanted us to do, our grp i mean. yay(:

sigh, tmr will be week6. woah. super fast right. like 4 more weeks to end of term2. sadd but then again, not so much stress and HOEPFULLY (though i doubt so) not such a huge pile of work to do. heh. but then, june hols will most prob be doing report for hssrp. haha.

not catching up at all....... Lord help me..........

2006-03-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

whee! i decided i shall blog about camp now!

YAY! camp rawk! haha, esp the POKERS! "there's something strange in gb camp, who do you call? the pokers! " hahaha. yay, pokers is my group anyway if you haven figure that out, and we are in close relationship with bridge! (: lol. yup, and my grp members are: margie, grace, yunxi, nat, tzegek and clarissa! haha, i think all of them are fantabulous! haha.

1st day: board the bus and all that. reached Port Dickson around 3pm. we took lunch and had icebreakers! haha. for icebreakers we came up with grp name(pokers) and grp cheer (hokey pokey). yup, then we went to our hotel room! haha, was rooming with ame and our room is 525, nice mumber right? palindromic. is that how you spell? haha. room 526 is lina and michelle cheong's room. haha. but the sad thing is, we didnt get a join room. ): yup, then SHOWER! haha, and had dinner. yumyum. bbq dinner. was nice. (: then after that had BIBLE QUIZ! haha, was super funny. and hilary was looking so amusing again. then had our first devotion by Mr Marc Wang. oooohhh. forgot to add that his baby boy is so CUTE! haha, i mean seriously CUTE! couldnt take my eyes off, ahh. cute cute. haha, so after eveything, we had camp comm debrief and we went back to our rooms! haha, then after SHOWERING, i went to prepare for 2nd day's quiet time so i wouldnt screw too much, although i know i will. haha. nvr led quiet time before. haha, then after that, ame and I watched Matilda on tv! hahaha. was so cool (; me loves matilda. hahah, then it ended arnd 1.30am. yup, then we went to sleep. (:

sigh sigh. kae. gtg. shall blog about day2 later or maybe tmr. (:

2006-03-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

ahahah. YAY! no more exams for this term!!!! (: yay hahaha. me is so happy now. and i decide i should blog before i leave for port dickson. (:

hehe. tmr is swim carn! (: hope waddle wins. (: sigh..... so much holiday work. hopefully i can finish them asap. am doing physics class exercise 2 now. shall be hardworking jus for today and do my physics work. haha. going to miss ADELINE during march holidays! haha, so used to sitting beside her everyday and tell her rubbish. haha. and will miss XIAN for all her gay-xian acts with yan and everyone else. haha. (: and of course yan! (: my classmate since sec1!!! my sweetheart too! super super nice and cute!!

ahh! i give up on physics lah! totally don understand my worksheet! AHHH!!! going to ask adeline to teach me tmr. hahaha. adeline so smart.. i ask her everything she know de. (: sighsigh.

ahh. have to chiong all my work like crazy. ): and i did badly for chi compo today. didnt have any points to write. ): haha. march holidays are so not holidays. jus as busy as normal days. if not worse.. jus look at my wed schedule: morning bring recruits to army market, then go to NUS for hssrp, then go for shirim retreat. haha. and my day will at 10. so by the time i get home and all that.... sigh. don know lah. haha. (: hope A&D rehearsal on the sat of march holidays will go better than the previous one. hopefully i can get all the stuff right . hehehehe. (: JIAYOU to myself. -.0.

haha. kae. this is a long enough post. (: shall go now. byebye. (;

2006-03-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

woah. 2006 already. haha. and haven blogged for a long long time. haha, but i am now, after long continuous nagging from ruyun and carmen. haha. don know what to type. hmm. hssrp is going to kill me this year i think. lol. so i most probably will only blog once every 2 weeks? haha. don know yet, depends on how much time i have. (:

bleach still rawk. prince of tennis too. (: heheh.

jus finished my application letter and resume. and it's horruble. but cant really care. sigh. still have chi compo on thurs. think im going to fail it. x_x. cant write compos. arghh. then after sch on thurs shall go down to NUS library to do reserach for hssrp. haha. and friday having swim carn (hopefully waddle wins) haha. and saturday im going to port dickson!!!!!

whee! cant wait for camp. ahahahaha. going to rawk.

kaekae, going off now. shall do chem wk. ):

2005-10-13T20:53:00.000+08:00

heheh. yay! 2nd last day of official school lessons! (: after this is EOYS! im very hyper about EOYS! cos after EOYS then i can SLACK! hehehehehe. (: whoa. year 2 pass very fast leh... hehehe. but im still looking forward to MONDAY! heheheheh. then FRIDAY will come quickly! hehehe. although when friday comes it would mean that stupid drama nite rehearsal is about to come. ): oh well. nvm

haha. this is boring i realise. but MR MIZAR HAS A FMA WATCH! hehe. nice. although i think the prince of tennis one is nicer. (: sry, but im bias. (: hehe.

oh well. i shall stop here. have to do the hist notes le... ):

2005-10-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

helo helo. im in a very depressed mood. sigh. yuck. i really hate this feeling. yuck. sigh.

clique conflict. i hate being stuck in the middle. and i don know why all this is happening. it's like, we are a clique for like 1 year already, and why is all these happening? i REALLY thought we were okay. YES, i notice things. more than people think i notice. we have been drifting apart, jill i mean, but i thought it was nothing much. why continue being nice with us when you cant stand us? this is so unlike her. sigh. what happened??? yuck. and when i read the entry bout you building walls around you and whatever moat thing, i feel even worse. i feel stuck in the middle, well im practically always stuck in the middle, but that doesnt really make a difference to this. but being in the middle is seiously not nice.

damn, why do we always end up in disagreements? i might not be saying this if im on teh receiving end, but im really glad im not, cos i don know how to survive then. it's terrible, right pple? sigh. i read all the stuff. didnt know so much "walls" around us.

terrible mood. i don know how i could still be quite the "normal" me today. but feel so hollow inside. not nice feeling... will drift off if there is time... that's why was telling bhuvan that will start feeling empty and in deep thoughts if i got nth to do.. which is bad. and that is why i have been keeping myself quite occupied today. until end of school. until now. although was talking to different people throughout the afternoon, but it jus didnt feel really right. like my heart is being stolen?? hiyah. so confusing. i don want to think of it anymore. give up le. HAIZ. someone cheer me up.

love and hate is only separated by a small margin. it only takes a spark to set it off. and now we are apart, is there any other way?

.i was here.
.am here.
.but might not be here in the future.

2005-10-02T01:38:00.000+08:00

helo! hehe. decided to update. (;

haiz. my BT is so pitiful i jus decided. got 5 files in waiting and are all BIG files. hopefully can download finish by end of week 6 loh. although week 6 i might not even turn on my comp. sighsigh.
so much work. siao, and i jus realise how horrible my science is. i don even know them by heart yet. only know like the surface of it. yuck. how to do formative next week. THIS IS NUTS! still haven do the hist formative and teh stupid chi ying yong wen. diedie. and the RS presentation haven practise. SIAN! so much to do and so little time. stupid loh.

haiz. i have to improve on alot of my marks this EOY loh. ESP geog andlit. if not, my mum will ban me from all stuff. including downloading stuff. i dying le. sighsigh..

kaez. i should stop complaining. byebye. (:

2005-09-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

hahahaha. finally updated!! heheheheh. so enthu and in high mood again! (:

hmm. lots of stuff happened within this few months. well first was the malay project presentation. well of course, i was the orang gila. i don know why, but every year i seem to end up getting the gila role. last year i was this crazy brother who dressed up as a shark to scare the sister. nutter. oh well. it went well though. (: was this crazy fan of ibu. heheh. (;

secondly, bleach and prince of tennis anime is soo nice!(: but take so long to download de... 1 ep take like 1 1/2 day to download. (: heheh. but it's very nice(:

ohoh. and urine's influence really got me, i think. (: thinks wang zi bian qing wai is really nice now. she pester me from july until now then i start watching. haha. i know i very shibai(failure) but sry lah urine. (: at least i watch it now. hehe. ohoh! and you must send me all the screen shots you have! nice. hehe. or else you teach me how to. hehe.

(: yay! comp studs is fun i suppose!(: cos doing website now. made a harry potter one. (well, that is like so obvious) yah i know. everyone knows that(in my class i think) lol.

i cant wait for EOYS to end. hehe. but that will be in end of week 6. (: then when it ends, i shall watch lots of tv! hehe. catch up on my anime, drama series and blah blah blah. hehe. so im working my BitTorrent very hard now. download all the shows now then week 6 then watch. haha. ohwell... maybe i should ask urine if i can go over to her hse to watch lots of her shows. like zijing. yes urine i know it is very long ago but i still want to watch it. hehe. (:

kaez. i shall stop now. FINALLY posted. well carmen, happy anniversary. i know i didnt post on that day cos my comp went bonkers but well, i changed my skin and updated for you! hehe. (:

byee! (:

2005-06-29T11:36:00.000+08:00

hey! hahz. im finally posting. hmm. and i changed my skin. sigh. lost everyone's blogadd. now have to re-link pple. sian. hahz.

on a brighter note, CHINESE CULTURAL CAMP RAWKS! oh my gosh! this is like the BEST Camp i have ever attended although it's in chinese. hahaz. yes. letme tell you...

1st day..
went to my hostel which is Blk 71, level 4 room 1476. hahaz,and found out im in wudangpai. hahaz, in pinyin. (: yay! my grp mentors are yixin and shunshen(am i right?) but anyway, they are very very very nice and they are like the most caring gls in the world loh. bought us noodles when other grps had to eat bread for supper. hahah. (:
anyway, we got our skit compulsory lines and actions. they are using the journey to the west lyrics ( only you blah, only you blah, without you blah, i need you blah.) haha, the action is hitting bowls with chopsticks. then my grp mate let me hear the thing and it was SOOOOOOOOOOOO funny. wahahahahahah, my gl thot i was crazy cos i was laughing like crazy. lolz. okayy. i know that doesnt make alot of sense but nvm.

2nd day
hmm. lecture lecture and blah.. hahaz. shall skip all this first and go on to the night where we stayed up to prep for our skit. they didnt give us ANY time to practise. sigh.
i was a bad guy.. hahahz. someone craving after the tang shan zang meat.. lolz. the bad pple got 8. haha, and there was only 1 guy. haha. then the tang shan zang was the smallest person in my grp. like only 140++ lolz. sunwukong was of course tall and well-bulit and all that lah. hahaz. we slept like around 2..

3rd day
hahaz, i shall also skip all the parts and go on to our skit prep. lolz, we finalise roles today arnd 6.. hahaz and im the laoda for the baddies cos im the smallest among all the baddies. haha, my grp leader wanted it to be contrasting cos the sunwukong is like 180++. sooo tall lah. but he's a guy. lolz. and im supposed to be carried by 2 of my "followers" so that i will be taller than that stupid wukong who is sooo tall. *bish* nvm. (:
hahaz, and you know how i got defeated by wukong? he shouted "tiger" and i will turn around, and he slap my face and i die. lolz, it was soooooo stupidly FUNNY and i was trying sooo hard not to laugh. oh yah, i spent like 4hrs practising "bu siao gong" (not to laugh.) lolz, but i highly doubt it worked, cos when my "followers" tried making me laugh, i laughed. lolz.

oh yes, i earned myself a new name "key siao da wang" hhahahz. (:

4th day
sigh. last day of camp. was sooo sadd. haiz. i really really love my grp mates although i didnt mix alot with some of them. haha, but they were really fantastic. esp my grp leader. (: very enthu and nice. 3 cheers for her! (: i thought our performance went great! i mean, i managed to hold my laughter till the end and we didnt make mistakes if im not wrong hahaz. but, i did forgot what to say and luckily my "chair" reminded me by poking me and telling me to turn around. hahaz, yes, my "chair". my "chair" is VERY nice. hahaz. at least that's what i think, cos im so heavy and im sitting on my "chair". hahaz and was nice enough to tell me i wasnt heavy. hahaz (: and my "chair" will remind me to say my line when i forget! and will tell me when to go on stage! haha, my "chair" rawks the most in my whole part loh, or else i think i will really screw up this whole thing. haiz. oh yes,thanks also to those two who carried me so that i can be taller than wukong. well done too for not dropping me. lolz, (: but anyway, i really had lots of fun being the laoda of the bad guys' gang and if it is possible, i want to re-play this skit again! (:

2005-05-24T11:17:00.000+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! soooo hyper now. hahahz. came back from gb camp jus today. GB camp as in st' hilda's GB camp. was soooo good to be back in st' hilda's. hahaz, was 3 days, that's why soo long nvr blog. was sorted into Hunny B's along with nicole. hahaz. i realise i'm ALWAYS with Nicole a.k.a Nathaniel a.k.a Niel in camps. hahza. then we did this silly litte thing that is suppose to test whether you are fated to meet or something like that, then nicole's hand was the same as mine. lolz, worse still is that some of the pple in my grp calls me nicole's twin. i soooo don look like niel!!! hahaz. so fun. hahaz, shenna was there tooo!!! so long nvr see her already.

oh. Hunny B's grp leader is my brother's classmate, so funny. had soo much fun with the games. i think we rawk! yay! ohoh, the weirdest game i played i the macoroni throwing game. lolz. had to smear my face with Gilmer shaving cream and let the kids throw macoroni on my face and see which grp can get most macoroni. hahz, so crap. and the shaving cream burns. was sooo hot after a while, like my eyes are tearing and stuff like that. the funnest game was the night walk. i think we freaked most of them out. Niel was teh poor women with 46 children! not bad right, niel?? a guy can give birth, hahaz. hiyah.. my mum is askin me to stop here. i shall continue tmr then. whee!!!!

2005-05-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

come Holy spirit fall on me now.

i need your anointing come in your power

i love you Holy spirit

You're captivating my soul

and everyday

I grow to love you more

I'm reaching for your heart

You hold my life in your hand

drawing me closer to you

i feel your power renew

Nothing compares to this place

where i can see you face to face

i worship you in spirit and in truth

yuppz. this is the song we sang in CG today. really a very meaningful for me. and i like it alot. It really shows how much God loves and and how nuch He cares for us. It's like it's endless and unconditional. i mean, it's really something great. yuppz. i hope we can really hit 100 regulars for YOUth fellowship by June. hahaz, going to target my friends in school. hahaz. so if you are my friend, beware.... hahahz.

2005-05-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS! today is the strangest day that ever happen to me. yuppz, really strange. let me start off with a lighter note first. haiz. i FINISHED with all my EOIs already. hahz, last paper today is MALAY and i screwed it up okay? this is so crap. yes, crap. TMR im going shopping with phoebe and buying presnts too. hahz, can relax and unwind from that EOIs and PTs stress. i hope my biology PT comes back with good results or else i think i will cry. I never screw my SCIENCE up so badly before. if it comes back with horrendous marks, i think i will fail my science for 1st semester. yuckz. i think i will be emotionaless and be even more quiet than i already am now. I never screw science up so badly before. haiz. i so don know whatcha do. hahz. nvm. linked more pple this few days. so happy. finally done that. PLUS i went on friendster and wrote testi for amelia and carmen. hahz. i shall write for ayam and ruyun maybe this weekend. wheee! ;)

okayy. now for that weird thing. It's really weird lah. i know i saw that person before, but i don know where and when. I'm quite sure because the person also recognises me. hahz, as in we kept glancing at each other and i jus felt i look so stupid at that tume. hahz, jus because the person look so familiar, i keep looking and looking. It happened on the bus when i was going home from MOELC today. Then when it neared my stop, i went to the exit and this person also wanted to alight. then we jus happen to look up and i realised the person looked so familiar. I'm so sure the person recognises me. hahaz, so funny, then when we alight at the bus stop, we kept turning around and glancing at each other until the person leaves. [i was suppose to change bus] hahaz, and until now im still trying to recall who that person is, although i have a faint idea who is it.

hahaz, i shall stop now, this is very long. byee.

2005-05-09T11:07:00.000+08:00

wheee! hahaz. this is pathetic. Others have already finish their EOIs and im still left with malay. so stupid. and because of that i have to miss GB for the 2nd week. sighh. and i cant seem to get my malay right anyway. Thank God this time it's only a listening compre and an open-ended compre. Topics are sports and hobby. hahahz. at least abit related. but i jus cant get them into my brain. shant bother. jus going to mug tmr in sch then. this is so stupid. hahaz.

cant wait for ORA. bet its going to be fun. GB stall is going to rock. i KNOW it. hahaz.

2005-05-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

argh. frustration. pissed. irritation. arghhhhh. i cant stand it. cant anyone get some privacy over the comp reading sci ppt slides without mum asking this and that? gosh. im veryveryvery pissed kaez? firsr ever time so. i cant bloddy hell care! ahh. WHATEVER. *vents anger* GOSH GOSH GOSH ahhhhhh. today is a horrible day. yucks. literature essay was horrid. chinese paper was screwed. and now, comp time being invaded. ahh. nagging that i must try do well. goodness, like who wouldnt put in their best in eoi? whatever. yes i know i always look sleepy and i do work in that hack-care look on my face with my eyes half-closed, but i still do try to make my answers as good as i can. ahhh. jus feel like punching all that's alive in me out lah! then i can be dead or else act dead and ignore everyone in school and anywhere else. not like it will make any diff. i doubt anyone will notice. hiyah. this is so xian. even bloggin is getting me piss now. yucky. i don care. going off now. going to be that "good-little tempered" girl and study. whatever.

2005-04-25T07:45:00.000+08:00

wheeeee! taking a break from my history performance task. have been trying to find info since 2 plus but to no avail. all crap. sighsigh. hahaz, mr. fighting is very nice. yay! prince of tennis tooo!!! whee! go RYOMA! ryoma rawk lahh... nvr lose a single tennis match. yay. me loves SEIGAKU tennis sch team. they alll sooooooo cool! hahahahahz. esp tezuka and ryoma. haiz. hope ryoma wont lose any match and he will be stronger, hahahz.

haiz. shall stop here and finish my hist. then i can go slack. hahahhaz.

2005-04-17T14:01:00.000+08:00

yay!!! my birthday coming!! jus two days away! wahahahahaz. turning 14. yay! cant believe im 1 day younger than ailin. and she's SMALLER than me! ahhh! lolz.

wheeeee!!! im feelling soo happy today! lalalz. this morning had enrolment rehearsal at kampong kapor methodist chruch.. hahahz, enrolment is tmr and im drumming! yay! hahaz, playing rowan tree and as the deer panther for the water with the SAME drum scroe. whoa! who would believe it? the drummers only learnt the score yesterday at 3 pm in school and we sounded quite oksy today! yay! gr8 achievement for me. hahahz, although i know it's very easy. hahz. but nvm.. cant wait for the sec one item tmr. they sounded so funny today.. although they were abit un-enthu. but well.. blehh. yay! finally getting lanyard and pocket crest tmr. very last minute. lolz.

started on sci pt today also. went to jill's hse. got like 50% of it done? i hope so. haven really started on hist yet. im soooo dead. hist is due on week 5! ahhh. i jus realised how much i didnt study. geog test on week 5 too! and eng test too! diediedie. so much commitments and so much to do. just cant wait for exams to be over. sigh.

kaez, i shall go now to do my hist. only done the cover page, blehh. im soo slow.

2005-04-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

heyy. finally posting. sigh. secretly too. decided to write in PROPER english to day so as to prevent my dear friend carmen lim to say that im "LIAN". lolz. anyway, very hectic week ahead. sigh. sat is gb banner making competition, then sunday got cancer daffodil day and mon is sports fest!!! even better, tue is school declared holiday! yay! but still have to go down to jervios special school for service-learning. haha. playing the drums for sports fest. im keeping my hands crossed, hope taht maris wedding will turn out fine. still trying to perfect my rolls and memorising the song. hehe. JIAYOU to myself. haha. I don care.. going to make rowena play the snarl drums for enrolment, i play bass. so much easier. is this considered as daylight bully?

haiz. today so boring. okay, i shall go now. mum coming. bb.

free me of this torture
you are the only one
where are you

2005-03-26T12:47:00.000+08:00

hahz! updating today! yay! i think i rawk lolz, jus feeling ego today, don know why. hehex. EDWIN AND VICTOR rawk! lolz, last nite spent like 1 hr downloading songs from victor and got the company directory from edwin. yay! thank you! love you pple! hahz. kaez kaez. i sound abit mad.

lala! kumpulan saya kejiran rok neutral is the best! hahz! im keepin my fingers crossed that our final product would be up to standard like last yr!

sigh, suddenly feelin soo sadd. like my happy 'element' being snatched away! i want it back! lolz, nvm. hahz, linked yinghan already. but don know how to use her site. so confusing. lolz, kaez, going off already. pray hard taht i get to go brighton yuppz? yay! gd fri and easter!

2005-03-24T11:31:00.000+08:00

hahaz. cluedo fan club up as well as the gb site! linked it already. gr8! lolz. hehez. alright, i promise i will hold on to shirim drums as long as i can. yay! hahz. love all my drum pple, although there is only 1 batchmate. the rest all juoniors. blehhx. XD. hahz. jus feel like proclaiming to the whole world all my batchmates and seniors rawk. lolz.

i don speak like ruyun.. i don speak 'lian'. serious. hahz, can go ask any of my other frens, they will tell you i don speak 'lian'. okayyy, jus found out that im ESFJ, which stands for 'extra speacial friendly joiner'. makes any sense? or does it fit me?? lolz, found out that the results of the casino will be realeased on my b0dae. 18th april!

wahahz. my 'kumpulan kugiran rok' is called NEUTRAL. hahz. we rawk totally.. decided to use NEUTRAl cos that was and still is why we started, hahz. zhengning a.k.a my bao bei xiao mei was still sayin our name very funny. hahz. but it's the reason why we are now! yay! we rawk. hahz. will be making it into a cd. It's an MV and a plain track. hahz. imagine singing in MALAY. lolz.

hahz. kaez. shall go take dinner now. byee! cant wait for gd fri and easter!

2005-03-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

heyy yay!! hahz. managed to lilnk more gb pple today. hmm, lina, elisa and val.. hahaz. yay, my seniors rawk!!! lalaz. i'm going crazy over my seniors. jus concluded i will most prob die if my seniors don come back. wahahz, goin crazy. lalz. yay!! jus cant get over my camp! really really got closer to batchmates and grp mates. hahz. agreed with lina that we must go home tgt some day. hahz. gr8!

today battlefied tour is gr8!! sooo cool lahhh!! esp the battlebox itself. cant get enough of it. hahz. so cool. but have to admit it can be abit scary when the lights suddenly goes off. hahaz, and cheryl was clutching on to me. thot i was always the timid tiddy. lolz.

kaezkaez, needa go now to finish malay proposal. my tcher is madd. onli give us 1 day to do proposal. hahz. nice week ahead! yay!

2005-03-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

heyy!!! ahhh!!! still cant get over camp!! it was sooo great! dot rawk totally although that cluedo was freaky.. wahahz. nvm. lolz. hmm. learning journey this week. hehz. so glad this yr no e-learning, or else with die of a pitiful death. wahahz. so sian. got malay project. and the proposal due on wed. the tcher is practically madd. only 1 day to do proposal.

CAMP!!! ahhh!! i hope nxt yr one is jus as fun! yay!! hahz. my seniors totally rawk!! F.O.T.T rawks too!! wahah. im theodore. lolz. F.O.T.Ters jus rawk lahh.. hahz. founders i think is Shana, Valerie and Lina?? or izzit elisa??? hmm.. nvm. lolz. kaez. i needa get back to work now. hahz. my blog is working again!! yay!!

2005-03-21T14:53:00.000+08:00

ahhh!!!!! finally bloggin once again!!! yay!! jus ended march camp. had it in batam for 4 days!! we rawk!!! talisafenicrcrpeshth a.k.a the ONE rawk the WHOLE gb. yay!!! love them to pieces!! we rawk!!! yay!!

we had lots of fun together and of course bonding. hehez. anyway, we had to do a nite presentation. lolz. our item to use was the umbella and we had to imitate dorothy. lolz. and it had to include either a song, rap or dance. we did two songs and a dance but without imitating dorothy. wahahz. linahhhh was the missionary, crystalbellll was our dearr little child. hahz. and the rest were the crowd cum chorus speakers. hahz. had lots of fun doing the umbrella dance. lolx.

drew alot closer to my grp members as i previously don know them well. hmm. let's list. the talisafenicrcrpeshthians are: tabitha, lina, me, nicole, crystal,peiling,shanin, crystalbel and felicia!! our tcher I/C is Ms leow the captain. hahz. yayyyyy!!! love my seniors and juniors and batchmates!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahz. had batchtime too where we competed against the sec 1 batch. arghh!! we lost and were tickled to death by the sec1 for one WHOLE minute!!! arghh!!! *fumes**. hehehz. kaez. had this DISC workshop too and i discovered im a high 'I'. wahahz. had alot alot of fun mann... plus the FOOD was great!!! hahz. fantastic!! hahz. bunked with amelia, emily and eunice! im damn lucky! cos all my roommates are my fav pple! yay. lolz.

yikes. but had this night game called 'cluedo' where dorothy was 'murdered' and we were supposed to find the murderer.. damn freaky!!! almost scared to death!! Dorothy aka dot went to dressed up so much of a ghost that i think my grp would have screamed if tabby hadnt stopped us. FREAKY!!! it was sooo real!!! arghh!!!

hahz. wonderful camp,. very entaining and great bonding. sigh. wished that the camp wouldnt end though. the fun we had with the whole company! yay! we rawk!!

hahz. finally bloggin. should congratulate me. whah. kaez. long enough entry i suppose. hahz. great day!!

2005-01-21T09:26:00.000+08:00

hey hey!! loong time haven blog.. wanna change skin soon.. see i got time 1st or not.. i totally running out of time. thought of deleeting this blog but on econd thoughts NO. hahz. kaez, i sound abit siao. anyway.. i think i will relink pple on what?? eerr... amybe on weekends only? my week days totally got NO TIME! hahz... got a new cca.. Chinese orchestra.. hahz, i joined only cos Gb clashes with malay. ANd i totally don wanna quit malay. so take up another cca and put Gb as 2nd cca loh.. wahahha. i think this post is quite long liao.. anyway, going for Ignite tmr, which is friday! Ignite rawkz totally! even though it haven started. hahaz, i know a few shps junior going too! yea! very happi! lolz. sound totally lame. sigh, think i go now to do WORK. hahaz. you might be thinking im a work- freak. BUT im not kaez?? buaiz!

2005-01-05T10:11:00.000+08:00

hey!!! okay, finally finally blogging.. sigh, yr 2005~~~ NOT a nice yr i can foresee, hahaz. soo hectic. i hate it. sigh, and braces are killing me. tchers are nice. CCA and 3rd lang, sigh.. both onmon and wed after sch.. now i don know what to do.. OMG!!! sigh, going off.. it's comp lessons now..

2004-11-24T09:41:00.000+08:00

heyy! tuesday! got my braces yesterday. They are green! lolz. but not really well done though.. errr, it very bad lah.. serious. Singapore Idol Finale in 8 days! hahaz! i hope Taufik wins.. im totally anti-slyvester. even Oli's family supports Taufik. hahaz! kaez, going to end here again! yea!

2004-11-21T08:04:00.000+08:00

hahaz! FINALLY blogging [japheth jus told me that]. lolz. sigh. i don really like this skin. reckon i will change it back soon. and yes! Harry Potter 3 jus came out! pestering my dad to get me*grins*. anyway... i totally don like Slyvester, so i really don hope he wins. he doesnt even look cute [sorry to contradict you joy].

tmr getting braces... lolz. finally got down to some comp stuff.. have been sitting in front on the tv for toooo long. hahaz. kaez. shall end off here now.

2004-09-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

heyo! okay, about a week haven updated my blog. sigh. my comp at home is jammed up. so i can only blog in school when i have the time. wahaha. okay, i jus decided im really on a craze. waha. okay, tmr is my cousin's wedding. *grins*. im sooo glad too that oralz have past... *grins*. kaez. shall go now. buaiz!

2004-09-13T22:45:00.001+08:00

heyo pple! sooo long haven blog! okay, new term, new duties. wahaha. haven comp studies now and jus returned from my duty which is the most moronic duty i have ever done. I call it the four-in-one duty -- patrol netball courts, gym block, mini-amphitheatre and the side gate/athena gate. hmm. have you ever heard of such a weird duty? okay, but im quite happy cos i got to wait for the gate to close everyday before i go back to class. sooo.. if it's some horrible lesson then very good! okay, my teacher is here now. going off!

2004-08-26T18:47:00.000+08:00

Hey! its kinda a lucky week for me. My parents got me X-box, a three-in-one printer and said i can get my braces soon! YEA!!!!!!!! GETTING braces! Im very happy bout it. la-di-la-di-la, getting at the same place as Cheryl once EOY or EOI finishes. yohho... me very happy!

sigh... bet i did badly in english today...

2004-08-24T09:15:00.000+08:00

haha! today was the MOST embarrassing day of my life... very very embarrassing! oh my god lah, my face was burning red! okay, let me break it down.. They jus kept getting worse and worse...

Firstly, during chinese. my parnters, Shu Yu and Lei Can respectively, suddenly tickled me. And i cant stand tickles, so i jumped. shot bout 5 cm. lolz. and so, it cuaght my chinese teacher's attention.. and she was damn angry, Very, and so i was embarrassed for the first time of the day.

Secondly, it was after school during a briefing given by my principal and deputy principal 2. okay, i was drinking water, then my stupid nike bottle made a funny noise and again caught everyone's attention. and people started laughing including the principals. arghh. total embarrassment. was trying to hide my face, but of course to no avail...

okay, the last one and the MOST embarrassing one. all thanks to my perfect SLs friends... helping to promote the matter. Well, it happened during third lang. I got back my workbook and suddenly realised a guy called ' Edward' wrote in my book. he wrote on two different exercises. he wrote ' Edward was here' and ' Edward read your book'. That's normal right? And my dear friends made a BIG fuss out of it. sigh. They went catcalling all throughout the lesson. Worst thing is that my teacher was helping them... " Edward very handsome you know, theodora..." arghh. And the whole class was laughing at my superly red face. and the worst thing was that since Edward was in the class after mine, my friends resolved to staying back to find out who that person is. as in, see outside the class who it is.

okay okay, i think that's enough. enough of embarrassing myself... anyway, SLs got through auditions! Yea! like i said, we rawk! Rawk on pple!

2004-08-22T11:03:00.000+08:00

hey pple! today was fun... erm, not entirely. was rushing through all my work.. was quite nice rushing through them though, *grins*, you must be thinking im crazy. lolz.

anyway, later japheth told me that they are having BQ later. so good luck yea? beat Victoria School. I think VS is horrible, they make all those who have no music background join band. yucky.

hmm, auditions results haven't come out yet. but hope we get in. I believe that our efforts will be paid off eventually! YEA! TERM 2 SLs ALL ROCK!

2004-08-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

heY! Today was fun, really, seriously. Im selected to go back for the student emmissaries! Yea! well, maybe all the lessons were fun except for CLE. It was TERRIBLE, very. hmm, CLE teacher was torturing us... wanna cry...

anyway, today i earned myself a nickname-- shuai di-di/ shuai ge... lolz. my friends insisted on that name... lolz. i kept telling them im NOT a boy and i don look SHUAI in any way. arghh. anyway, they added that if im really a boy and my hair is changed, then i will look very shuai. arghh. yucks. cant believe it. I look SHUAI. err.... anyway, all this came sbout from silly serene,lolz. I told her she was cecil, i wanted to add pretty too, but i forgot what it was in malay. arghh. lolz.

well, another thing. The SLs humilated ourselves today. lolz. we danced. hehe. audition for teachers' day was today.. it was quite unorganised but it was quite alright overall. hope we get through the interview.. hmm. oh well, i think i shall end here, that's all today... *grins*

2004-08-20T07:42:00.000+08:00

hey pple! great day today! had our chinese test today! VeRy VeRy glad it is gone.. that means i only left two projects left with four tests... lolz...

anyway, today term 2 SLs spent like half of our lunches to practise the dance for teachers' day... tmr is auditions already... hope it will go well, everyone will do their best! Yea! lolz. im lame.

Love my blog! but... Evil CK went to put me as squishy... im not, or am i? nvm. erm... lessons today was nice until science... it was normally my fav lesson till today. arghh. don wanna mention... oh well, shall go now... till we meet again, theodora...

2004-08-18T10:21:00.000+08:00

heyhey! so happy today! finally got myself to work! but exams coming... alot alot alot... so sad, looks like i got to work hard these few days. lolz. haha, love my blog! me-to-you bear is cool! erm, got alot of likes too. sigh, is there any more female characters left for me, gladys and ame to do???

greetings, people. this is ck being evil. i've hacked into tiddyora's blog and added links, as requested. bwahaha!

2004-08-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

Hey! very long haven blog! very very long. doing some last minute work on this blog of course. sigh. going to change this skin soon... anyway, lots of projects and tests now... very very tired. but still found time to go online. whee. oh well, shall go now. jus finished my performance task. lolz. bye!

2004-07-26T04:30:00.000+08:00

hmm... went to Pulau Ubin for bike for bibles yesterday... hmm, very interesting... tried carrying the drums yesterday. It's was cool overall but was traumatised when i carried the bass drum.. was scary seriously...The snarl drums were much better, love them! Biking was fun too, although i didnt really like the bike that i was given, was creeky... arghh. nvm. love drums. love drums. love drums. they really are awesome! Yea! Hope i will never have to drop drums. sigh, seniors left. :[. me miss them.

2004-07-20T11:23:00.000+08:00

heyhey, very long never long already... last sat<17th> was sec 4 farwell... So sad, Amelia, Junli, Phoebe and Elsie leaving us for a few months. That's what i hope. Hope they all farewell in their 'O' levels... I believe God will bless them and make sure they come back after their exams! I cant wait for that day to arrive!

Haha, that day was fun... although it was a bit rushy. hmm, ame and I had to rush to buy presents.... then, when we reached Li-anne's house, we hurrily wrote a message to them... I wrote for Amelia and Junli! yea! They rulez! hehe... actually all my seniors rulez lah... hehe, im not really bias....

Our performance was the commerial thing! I thought it was a great success*grins grins*. I really think it was... and the food was great! all thanks to may-anne and li-anne! Too bad, Phileo wasnt here.. They missed out all the fun... And I love all my seniors' gift! esp amelia's and Elsie's... was a very good memorial to me...

Sigh... i really wanna thank all of them... There are countless things i wanna thank. Like on the 17th, when Allan was sick, thank you amelia and Junli for making an effort to come down to teach us although madam kour did most of the teaching. Thank you Valerie for being so forgivin when i kept forgetting to bring my outreach folder. thank you Melissa for helping me pin up my sash on the first day when I had to wear my uniform. Thank you all the chairpersons for makin the whole year's activities run so smoothly...

haha, okay, the most interesting part... We awarded the sec 4 seniors with awards.. haha, made by AGAPE ourselves! yea! okay, Elsie got the 'best public speaker award', phoebe got the 'most complicated name award', Amelia got the 'laughiest award' , junli of course got the 'lamest award', Felicia got the 'strongest shoulder award', and haha, like i always say she was, christie got the 'most high-pitched award'! haha... Hope all the sec 4 appreciate it although it was lame...

okay, that's all for today... im down with flu still... All thanks to lynette...

2004-07-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

heyhey, took this test... hehe, so here's the results!

Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.

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2004-07-11T09:33:00.000+08:00

heyhey.. a friend jus sent me this, so i decided to post it up... hehe...

about daniel radcliffe
Name: Daniel Alan Radcliffe
DOB: 23rd july, 1989
hair colour: dark brown
eye colour: brillant blue
fav.director: [of] The Sixth Sense
svhool subject: science, art and PE
Sports: soccer, gymnastics

about rupert grint
Name: Rupert Grint
DOB:24th august, 1988
provenance: Hertfordshire, England
Hair colour: red
eye colour: green
sibilings: james, georgina, samantha, charlotte
sports: soccer

about emma watson
Name: Emma Charlotte Duerre Watson
DOB: 15th april, 1990
provenance: Oxfordshire, England
Hair colour: brown
eye colour: brown
sibilings: Alex
school subject: geography and math
sports: tennis, hockey and rounders

hmm, i think that bout it till today... bye..

2004-07-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

heyo... today got my gb fortnight cards...got to do donations again, sigh... Im perfectly well again, jus that i get pissed off by some pple... I think im using too many dots. but who cares eh? sigh, im suddenly very troubled. had a nice devotion today in gb, think i like this line the best: you can whisper in a crowd to Him. haha, monday is gb day. will be in uniform for the whole day... will have to greet all teachers, sayin "morning ma'am". whatever. im sick. still think drums the best. like today when we had a rehearsal today, the bagpipers sounded horrible... but nvm, we are a band, we shall stay as one always, hehe.

There's something in my heart, but it is not affecting me much. I cant really define what it is, i jus cant. it's like half of something and half of another. Joy jus told me again not to spell okay. she wants me to spell it as 'ok'. but i jus cant, can anyone understand? I jus cant help it, it jus come naturaly, it's jus like you like someone but you cant explain why... hehe, joy, you understand?

haha, i asked amelia and dexter... so dexter is in 1i, so i doubt any hildan is in his class. okay, i shall end here.

2004-07-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

sigh... don know what crap this is...

Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK]

You are Super-Cool!

Woah! Step back - the future's so bright for you it's blinding me! You are the coolest of the cool. Everyone looks up to you as the benchmark for being coooool. The fonze was your grandfather. Any cooler and you'd freeze! WOO it's chilly in here.

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2004-07-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

hehe.. went to do this thing... so here is the results...

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Sense of Humour
In a survival situation, you:	Act crazy as a diversion
Your hidden talent is:	Spiritual wisdom
Your gift is:	Athletic ability
In groups, you:	Act as host/ess
Your best quality is:	Your industriousness
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature

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2004-07-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

sigh... today is a horrble day too, although my finger is slightly better.. Gladys asked me who chuan yi was, and sandra also asked me if i know who chuan yi was and if i know who gabriel from gep is. sigh, why is everyone asking me if i know someone by the name blah-blah?

fieldtrip was today. we visited qianhu fish farm, aerogreen and everbloom which was the vegetable and mushroom farm respectively. It was fun, esp the mushroom farm. hehe. quite enjoyed myself, but...

Terrible day, i lost my chairman badge!!! It was on my shirt this morning! i guess it fell off... now what to do???Arghh... Im totally freaked out by myself! Im upset but it's a kind of sadness that no words can express.. Ms Ha talked to me today, asked me quite a number of things. i feel stress.. i finally feel it, after so long being in a leadership position. why? why did i suddenly feel freaked out? Thy life is in a mess.

In sooth i know not why i am so sad, my mind seems to be tossing on the sea. Let me say that i am sad cos im not happy. why? my life seems to be an empty shell. i seem to be living in a world controlled by others, doing what im ordered to do, living in fear. why? there is jus so many answers to my questions, every single one jus more impossible than the first, so will i ever find a perfect answer to my problems, will will i ever live like this?

People out on the streets may think im fine. but the truth is, im not. who will ever understand the torture im going through in my heart? it's never the same. in this world, you meet alot of people. Some come and go quickly, some stay for a while and leave footprints in your hearts, but one thing for sure, we are never ever the same. believe me, we are never ever the same, even you look and sound the same, you will at least be different in your thoughts and moods at a point of time.

i think i shall end of here. but no matter how upset i am, i stil look forward to a new day! :], one's fate can jus change in a day!

2004-07-06T19:48:00.000+08:00

haiz... Im bored... Yesterday went out with joy, lydia, emelyne and shenna... Guess what? we saw jourdan,jourdan's bro, thaddeus and jason... hehe, they kinda changed... esp thaddeus, almost couldnt recognise him...

sigh, today is a Terrible day... I injured myself... fingers bleeding like mad... wanna cry... anyway, i cant believe jourdan is my friend after hearing what Grace Zhang said... she said jourdan is terrible, always bully her when she was pri 3.. always shoot rubber bands at her.. and when she was pri 4, she once saw jourdan at the library, and although she hated her, she went over to say "hi". and horrible jourdan applied medicated oil on his hands and hit her eyes. horrible, horrible...

never mind... today had been fine, although i still have some problems with my clique, but that doesnt matter anymore... okay, this is the longest post i have ever had by now, and im gonna end it... so till we meet again, it's your heart that leads you...

2004-06-18T14:44:00.000+08:00

hmm... hopefully the changes could be seen. anyway, think holidays are great! haha, shoet be short post only... hehe...

2004-06-16T13:51:00.000+08:00

Doctor Unheimlich has diagnosed me with Tiddyyora's Lurgy
Cause:	excessive Internet usage
Symptoms:	extreme terror, delusions, breathing difficulties
Cure:	acupuncture
Enter your name, for your own diagnosis:

2004-05-29T09:25:00.000+08:00

haiz... went back to primary school yesterday... saw my friends, some changes in them... Like those Chinese High boys, all of them very tall now... feeling sorry for someone... sigh... haha, Hildan rocks! All my teachers are still so nice! haha! good luck for all those HIldans going for APMOPS today! Bring glory to the Lord as well as to the school! haha...

2004-05-27T21:24:00.000+08:00

so happy... went back to school. saw all my teachers. and fun fair is great!

2004-05-26T20:41:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. end school early by two days!!! yeah! got report back... not so good... boo hoo... miss joy, lydia, emelyne and shenna! If any of you manage to see this tag me and give me hugs k????/ thanks!

2004-05-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

okay... posting for the second time... jus wanna say rocks! and all my friends and all my seniors... haha... okay, gtg. bye!

2004-05-25T20:04:00.000+08:00

hey... people... so happy. my new blog! hmm, being quit lame. Joy, you so lucky,at U.S. now. Goh Tian link me again can? thank you!